• 12:00 AM, Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Nobody understands.I can safely say that noone has ever faced the situation I'm currently facing. It is, indeed, probably one of the most awkward incidents I have to go through in my entire life. But I know what I'm doing. I know how to handle it.
I'm sorry if it hurts, I don't mean it.
I'm sorry if it's unreasonable, but I know what I'm doing.
I'm sorry if I'm wrong, but I hope y'all understand.
Urgh. I mean, what's the use of faring rather well in the examinations when I still can't truly smile? I put on a strong front all the time so that noone will worry. I try so hard to be as perfect as I can be. I can't help it that my life is filled with many imperfections. For one, I'm easily affected by my emotions. I'm trying to handle it already. It just sucks so much when no one sees the pain that I'm going through now. Where's my true happiness?
"Drew looks at me;
I fake a smile so he won't see,
That I want, & I'm needing,
Everything that we should be.
I'll bet she's beautiful;
That girl he talks about.
& She's got everything that I have to live without."
